REBIRTH

To die is to come back to life as a better form–

Possibly?

But what do I mean exactly? Well, here’s a little lesson for you.

Grab a journal, and take some notes.

To die, in the sense of what I had mentioned is to experience death of the old you, to the you that you've grown so attached to, to the you that was never actually you to begin with. 

Still confused? We’ll let me go deeper, but please promise to stay with this, as tricky as it may be to follow. And I promise that if you do, to the extent that you digest this all fully, this life experience will forever change for you. 

We are a soul, encased in a shell of a body, a body in which is essentially controlled by this big brain of a thing, aka our “mind”. Now, what makes sense of all the constant information being absorbed into this brain is what we call our ego–ego is the familiar, little voice in our head that tells us “who we are”, who we should be, and of course, who we shouldn’t be, based on past teachings, conditioning, environment, culture, trauma, the list goes on. But what is important to note is that the ego created this “you” based on these exterior experiences, and I'm going to be transparent with you here, and please remember to follow this: our truest experience comes from within. It always has. We just have forgotten this with time and age. Our brain is a powerful machine that has taken us so far away from who we truly are. Ego gives us a sense of belonging, and without it, yes, most of us would feel completely lost, without a sense of “identity”, without a place in this experience of life, ideally “dead”. But the funny paradox is this: death is inevitably a necessary experience of this ego-driven life. You might be able to run from it and try denying this truth I have just shared with you. However, this truth will always find a way to catch up with you. 

Please continue to follow. You're doing great. 

Death of what is our “self” curated by our ego is the key to being free. 

Let that soak in for a minute. 

We must experience an ego-shedding in order to be fully alive. 

Our true self exists beyond the curtains of Ego. Our true self exists when we live from the heart and soul, rather than from the mind. To be alive is to be fully connected with our heart and soul, and less controlled by our funny, big brain of a thing. You see, we must be “reborn” spiritually, connected back to our soul self, to be fully alive. We must experience the death of our old “ego self” and come back to our truest self.

How is this done?

Well, it first comes with awakening to the mere fact that you are not who you have always thought you were. It comes with acknowledging and fully accepting that you are, in fact, a Soul yearning to experience itself through a human shell, rather than a human shell experiencing itself through its mind. Also, the key is understanding who you “think” you are. Thoughts literally manifest into your reality, and all those deep-rooted beliefs, values, customs taught to you since your diaper days–well, those my friend are everything that have made you who you are today. Thoughts of the past and/or future also take you away from your truest, present self. To be present attacks the ego, for the ego loves to live in the past and/or future. To be present shoots daggers at your ego, essentially, bit by bit, bringing it to its inevitable death. 

Now, how to be present:

Mindfulness is the key. This means to be mindful of the experience and how it presents, however it presents in this very moment. This comes with being the observer of this experience, looking at the picture from the outside in, to accept it, to learn from it, to feel it in its fullness–we ultimately have full control of this experience once we learn how to tap into being the “sorcerer” of this experience. Adapt a loving meditation practice, my friend. Sit with yourself in pure silence for some time, and let all that you embody surface, accepting it all with such love, regardless of how muddy it all may surface. To not know your internal will never allow for the rebirth of self. Tap into your internal self and all truth and answers will come to fruition. Also, find peace in connecting with Source. This is God for me, but it can present in whatever way for you. This is the source in which we have all come from, the source that created us, the source that we are always connected to, the source that keeps us all connected so purely, the source that knows the bigger picture, and is always guiding our every move–practice surrendering fully and being in complete trust (faith) that Source is guiding you, for the best of you always. Source is the purest embodiment of love. 

To embody love fully is to exist in our purest form, as Source created us to be. 

To embody love is to embody Source, and all of Source’s infinite loving abilities. 

Ego goes against this, but our Soul is this. 

To love fully is to have undergone death symbolically. 

Making sense?

Still following? 

Once we have tapped into this deeper truth (emphasizing “truth”), we can put it into practice, readapting our thoughts, beliefs, and emotions to being more of our truest self, which is love. When we don’t feel in harmony with our natural love-state, this is the signal to our purest “self” that we must readapt, you see. If we feel any sort of emotion, or have any thought that isn’t of love, then it is our time to make change, to change our thinking, our behaviors, our actions, our surroundings, to realign with love. To lack a feeling of love means Ego has taken over. Come back to the present, breathe into whatever the situation might be, make sense of it, and adjust. This is when our inner “sorcerer” comes into play–believe that we are all sorcerers capable of molding this experience into the reality we want it to be.

Let go of the past, as the past is no longer. The past made you who you are, yes, but it is no longer relevant, as you only exist in the here and now. The future will never exist in the most important place you need to be, in the here and now. So, my friend, do me this much, and let the past and future be no longer. Let the past and future die with the old you, as the only real you exists in the here and now. This in itself will liberate you, and gift you back your freedom. 

I do understand this might be a lot to take in, and I do understand that this might just be easier read than done, but let me tell you this much: I have experienced the rebirth, and it is so beautiful. Now, believe me, with it all I have undergone the shit to get here. I had to feel the pain of the past consistently resurfacing, the trauma that had defined me for decades, the beliefs of myself that I could’ve sworn were of me. Identity crises. Fading old connections. Challenging confrontations with loved ones and myself. The highs and the lows. The constant battle against a stubborn ego. What I am trying to say is that I had to go through the goddamn trenches (!) to get here–to experience rebirth is to experience death, and death is never pretty. Remember, this is death of all you once knew to be yourself. So yes, this isn’t an easy experience to undergo. But let me promise you my friend, it is so worth it, as for myself it has been so worth it. I now see life through new eyes, through my Soul’s loving eyes, as this life experience has been recalibrated to its purest, most natural form. I see the love that is ever present and embedded within everything in every moment. I naturally feel the want to share the love, as I now know we all yearn for it. I naturally attract all that is love, because I, myself, embody love. I have tapped into what I would coin “Heaven on Earth” and am forever blessed that I committed to this journey of coming back home to Source and who I was created to be. 

I do, now, want to be honest with you: no, I am not riding an every-moment high, feeling completely blissed out every second of my day. My God, I wish I was. In fact, as I currently write this, it's only fair to share that I am undergoing a somewhat-challenging period of growth. Going through this period has actually been the inspirational catalyst to write this all for you–thank God for the struggle, am I right? Kidding. Now, let me tell you that there is nothing at all wrong with having these periods, nothing at all wrong with you, as these experiences come with still being human after all, and as a normal part of life. Unfortunately, however, with being human with having a brain (and mind) there is no fully ridding the ego; Ego will do whatever in its power to pry at your new identity, especially the more you begin to embody it authentically. These tests will be thrown at you, as I have come to realize, and are placed in your way to, in fact, test you, to test your love, your abilities, to test what you've learned and accomplished spiritually, to test your faith. Yet, with new wisdom and understanding, one can remain resilient, and as I stated earlier, let these periods be the signals to our purest "self" that it's (again) time to readjust. Here's something to take away with you: this is a lifelong practice. This is a practice that we must apply to our daily lives, a practice in which we must keep practicing in order to reap its benefits. And I am here to reassure you that, as long as you stay committed, as long as you dedicate yourself to the rebirth, this practice becomes second nature, and the results so worth it. 

With this all, the point I am trying to make clear is that this “death” isn’t the end of you as you know it. Not at all. It is more-so opening your eyes and waking from this dream–a caterpillar remains in its cocoon with no idea of the truth and beauty that awaits beyond its shell, until it outgrows it old self, ready to finally break the shell into its most beautiful form. This is to awaken to a reality where all feels right again, profound and alive, just as it was always meant to be for you.